Day 1
I must
admit that I have been slacking. I have not been keeping up with my blog. But I
have also not been keeping up with my challenge. I had planned to blog about
Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner. Feeling uninspired, (I cannot write when I
am uninspired, and I refuse to pay someone to write my content), I fell behind.
Well, I have very recently become re inspired because of a very specific recent
event! As of February 28th I am going to be a mommy again! Yay! I
think. (Hooboy)
Well,
I’m sure that I am pregnant, it’s the “Yay” part that I am not so sure about.
As I sit here, with three children in their teens, one already an adult, my
excitement is a slow build up. Mixed feelings. Mixed emotions. I have not
broken down in tears yet. I started early, looking forward to being a 43 year
old with all of my children grown. But it is ok, I think. I am probably about
six weeks along. According to the online gestational calculator, basing it on
the first day of my last period. Which is fine. But there was something off
about it. I swear it was almost two weeks long! There is a good chance that I
am further along than the chart indicated. What I do know is that when I peed
on that little stick the little plus sign popped up long before the two minute
mark! It was like “dude! You’re not even showing yet?”
Please
do not get me wrong. I love my little unborn buddy. I cannot wait to meet
him/her. All of my children are awesome. I don’t think I’m the best mom
(probably closer to the other end of the spectrum, to be honest) but my kids
(and cats, now that I think about it) all have turned out to be pretty
wonderful. humble, loving, empathetic and strong. All of them born under different
circumstances. All becoming people that I am proud to call my offspring. I have
no doubt that number four will be any different.
So now,
my new focus of my blog will be my attempt at an ayurvedically inspired
pregnancy. And perhaps even breast feeding. Depends on how long my attention
span holds out.
This is actually me at 10 weeks. It took me a while to finally start taking pictures. No one here can ever accuse me of being prompt with my content! It looks like I am showing. Perhaps more than I should at this time. It is just that I am a little pudgy around the middle even without the baby!
